*This summer at Providence Church we are spending time in the psalms together. Each week during our summer Psalms series we will be posting written responses by a member of our community from their time meditating on a particular psalm. Go here to read last week’s reflection on Psalm 1. This week’s reflection is from Eric Haug:
My precious two-year-old granddaughter, Bella, loves to ask, “What ‘cha doin’ Pops?” She’s constantly watching, listening and imitating every day! As I meditate on Psalm 90 and reflect on my 32 years as Daddy and 2 years as Pops, I ask myself: “Do my children and grandchildren see the mighty power and steadfast love of Jesus in my life? Do they hear me tell the stories of God’s miraculous deliverance, constant provision, and loving presence in my life?”
This year God has been teaching me to “number my days” and live in light of His glory and grace. He continues to pour out His blessings on me and my family, including…
A godly, loving wife for my eldest son; My 3rd granddaughter named after my mom; My 1st grandson; My 3rd son being called to serve God in full-time ministry; Being called to serve as deacon at Providence with my precious wife; My “baby” successfully finishing his 1st year at college; Each of my children and my wife longing to follow Jesus.
As I celebrate these blessings and God’s faithfulness, I implore God to remind me daily of my desperate need of His deliverance, His provision, and His presence.
- (v. 15) “Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us …” In the midst of my afflictions, who alone is my joy and my salvation?
- (v. 16) “Let your work be shown to your servants and your glorious power to their children.” How is God’s glorious power being revealed to my children? When they look at my life, do they recognize God’s transforming power to mold us into the image of His Son?
- (vs. 14) “Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.” Where is my heart searching for satisfaction? How am I experiencing the Lord’s steadfast love and His faithfulness?
- (vs. 17) “Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us, and establish the work of our hands…” Am I working to earn favor with God, or am I submitting and allowing God to freely bestow favor to my work?
- (vs. 1) “Lord you have been our dwelling place in all generations.” Am I abiding and resting in God’s presence? Is God truly my refuge?
- (vs. 8) “You have set our iniquities before you, our secret sins in the light of your presence.” In what ways is God’s presence exposing my iniquities and secret sins? How is God’s presence my only source of hope and joy?
- (vs. 13) “Return, O Lord! How long?” Is the longing of my heart to dwell in the presence of the Lord? If not, what heart idols am I pursuing to substitute in His place?
On my 58th birthday each of my children wrote me a letter, which I keep by my bed, reread often, and shed tears of joy for God’s great faithfulness and unfailing love. Through their words I remember and celebrate who God is and who I am in Christ. Some of their words…
- “I cherish every second we have spent and will spend together.”
- “This year has proven to me how much you mean to me, and how much I miss you!”
- “God willing there will be a 4th generation of Haugs that love Jesus the way that you have.”
- “I can’t wait to start having kids so that they can have you for a grandfather and be shaped by your influence.”
- “When people say I remind them of you, it warms my heart because that’s who I am trying to be.”
Lord You are gracious and “from everlasting to everlasting You are God!” My final reflection is summed up in this quote by Oswald Chambers: “Am I living my life in such a way that it produces a yearning for God in others?” I pray that God will continue to teach me to number my days and sing of my Redeemer each of those days!